Just be

        Life is not linear. It is not sinusoidal either. At least for me, for now. I don't feel like I am going Up. I am in the rock bottom and when I think the only way is up, I feel I have fallen behind 4 feet. I don't know what is happening with my life. I see and read a lot of motivational quotes to do this, do that. For example, take deep breaths, meditate, move your body - To do all that, you need that default amount of energy in both mind and body. If your mind is overwhelmed, then it doesn't definitely want to co-operate with your body to perform above said activities. 

        You can realize the rock bottom only after 5-10 years of hitting that rock bottom. If you are still in rock bottom, your hope of going up may be shattered if you fall behind deeper. So, motivational quotes that say - Law of Attraction, Visualize, Imagine, Manifest all that Universe will conspire - will take a long time probably. Those set of manifestations - Again you will realize only after 5-10 years retrospectively. So at a given point of rock bottom in your life, you really don't know what is next. There could be 100 more pit falls and 100 more land mines. I am not saying, you have to be careful with your step. I would say, go with flow.

If you fall, you fall. 

If you don't want to get up, you don't have to.

If a phoenix rises from its own ashes, you don't have to rise from your own ashes. You can still be a phoenix. 

If friends suggest you to take deep breaths, you can take them or not. It is upto you. 

        I don't know if deep breaths/reading motivation quoties/talking to therapist/journaling will help you get better. You can choose to do them or not. You can sit still. You can cry. Cry it out loud as long as your throat gets dry and the house reverberates with your cries. 

To do something right now or not, it is upto you. You are good now.

        You don't have to be strong all the time. It is an invisbile pressure. Motivation from friends can make your realize the illusioned beliefs you have living so far with. Your name might have a powerful Goddess name that can destroy the demons in one wink, but you don't have to pretend to be strong. You can be weak. You can be a failure. You can be anything. You will still be You. Don't care what anyone says/consoles you. Just be.