2020 - The Good, Bad and Ugly

         2020 - The Good, Bad and Ugly


  






2020 has been a terrific roller-coaster for all the humans on this planet.

I saw a meme yesterday that the most feared year 2012 actually manifested in 2020, with the COVID-19 killing billions of lives. 

Should we call this a cleanse? Is Mother Nature healing? I am blessed by the Universe enough to sit inside a safe place (my home) and type this from an air conditioned room. 

Will this be the same perception of a mother who lost her child to COVID? Or a child who lost her parents to COVID? Or a family whose business took a downturn due to COVID?

I always have this question lingering inside my head. Whenever I face a difficulty, the first question my mind asks is - "Why God? Why me?". After a few days, my mind starts playing multiple roles. 

Mind voice 1: I am going through a lot of stress. I deserve better. I did nothing wrong, no harm to anyone.

Mind voice 2: There are millions others going through struggles worse than yours. Why is yours, such a big deal?

Mind voice 1: Correct. But my pain is my pain. NO one else can feel it. The fact that others have worse struggles than me, doesn't invalidate my pain. No one can invalidate my feelings.

Mind voice 2: I know, you will cheer up. This is a loop that you will go through for few more times. Until another loop comes in to break your head (smirks).

Mind voice 1: STFU.

Mind voice 3: MV1, MV2 - Can both of you calm down please? You guys are exceeding expectations to please your boss - The Maya. Sa is reading the Immortal talks - Chapter 3 & 4 says, whatever Sa feels, hears, tastes is just an experience for her soul journey. Sa is Shunya (nothingness). 

You are NOTHINGNESS.

Sa back to her reality: Let me list down the Good and Bad of 2020.


Good of 2020

  • Work from home
  • No driving 60 miles back and forth JPMC office at downtown
  • Good Time to heal from past health issues by staying at home
  • Suraj staying with me
  • Sansa came to our house <3
  • Able to believe that we can conceive naturally 

I don't want to list the bad because, from them, I have been able to take the good. :)
Thanks to my miscarriage - I learnt to trust my body, listen to my body and believe we can conceive naturally,.
Thanks to my job loss - I was able to concentrate on my health issues and take the job stress (TOIL item) out of my mind.
Thanks to the car accident - A year from now, looking back retrospectively, I will be able to tell the good from this event.






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