Letting go

Letting go (Free ya vitrunum)


       That was the time when I was sinking to the rock bottom in my life. My boss micromanaging and threatening to fire me, my room mates not being very helpful, living on my own and away from my parents - all of these had a huge impact on my mental health. A dear friend introduced me to Glass painting. She gave me a broken glass shard sample and I painted a cute yellow Tweety bird on it. It turned out good (beginner’s luck) and I kept it at my desk. Broken glass can also be a beautiful work desk decor add-on. Isn't it? Why should something be always so perfect?

    Few months later, there was an art contest in my office. The theme was 'Leading the Change'. Though I didn't win any prize in the contest, I was quite satisfied with my work. I did this glass painting below.

    



    Few months later, I made this beautiful Lord Ganesha painting and gifted for my parent's 25 wedding anniversary. It was the perfect "hand-made with love" gift I could give them. 




     6 years later, I tried to do some glass painting and I couldn't get that level of perfection. Can you figure out the reason? Expectations had increased. I wanted to succeed in whatever I did. I couldn't allow myself to make mistakes. I wanted it to be perfect but unfortunately, I couldn't even complete that painting.

    In 2021, I am on a job break and I am getting back to my old art hobbies. Now, I ponder and realize that the Lord Ganesha Glass painting came out the best because I didn't had any expectations. I didn't want the painting to be perfect. I had allowed myself to make mistakes and even correct it. I gave room to the Universe to bring out whatever is in store for me. And It turned out to be extraordinary.

    This is a much needed life lesson for me at this time. I was able to paint something to the best of my capabilities only when I let loose of myself. No holding on to the expectations too tight. I realize that I will get the things I need the most at the right time. I just need to wait patiently by letting loose of myself. Free ya vitrunum! 

    Also, I have bought around 6 canvases to allow myself to make mistakes and learn from them :) It's okay to make mistakes :) Peace bro ✌️

     

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  1. AthiraiJanuary 24, 2021 at 8:35 AM

    A lesson that we conveniently forget at times :) So lovely !!

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