Feeling Aligned?

   2023 December - My husband always keeps talking high about his firm that I asked him, “Hey, can I apply for job roles at your firm, do you have any issues with “husband and wife” working for the same firm?” And he replied, “yes go ahead and apply if you find anything suitable”.

      This excited me a lot and the next day, I enthusiastically searched for similar job profile and to my luck, I found one that matched 75 percent of my previous experience. I was so happy, I immediately sat and edited my resume and applied for it on the job portal. 

      I came to know that my husband’s senior at his college in the US works as a manager in the same firm and that I can reach out to her for referral. I did send her the resume and I got a call from Talent Acquisition team the next day. I answered all the questions and patiently waited for the Hiring manager interview round. 

     Days and weeks passed by and yet there wasn’t any response or communication further. I thought I was ghosted but the HR was kind enough to let me know they decided to pursue with another candidate. 

      I felt dejected because I had booked international flight tickets for my parents to come and stay with us and help take care of our baby. They also came but they had to leave to home country within 2 weeks due to dad’s health condition. My brother was the savior as he agreed to fly with my parents within such a short notice. He also took my dad to the hospital and correct diagnosis and medication were prescribed. Glad my father is safe. Grateful to my brother. 

    My husband and I  had originally planned to celebrate our baby’s first birthday at an event hall with decor outsourced. I had to cancel all of that because of the uncertainties with dad’s health condition. We then decided to keep the birthday party simple at home. We setup the decor ourselves and had a beautiful pink, glitter and gold ballon arch and a beautiful ping Angel cake for our little cutie pie 🥰 The birthday event went well and I felt so satisfied to have done all the table decor, balloon arch setup all by ourselves. We did get help for blowing balloons from two of our friends 😄

     Now that my baby girl is already a year old, I decided to apply for jobs seriously and I started submitting applications religiously. In 2 months, I got a call from my dream company and I was so happy! I prepared heavily for all the rounds - Talent Partner, Hiring manager, Panel interview but I didn’t get selected. 

      After my panel interview got over, I felt happy that I didn’t answer only 4 questions out of 12-13 questions I was asked. A week passed by and I didn’t see any response from HR. I kept checking for emails every now and then. I was obsessed and I was so desperate to get the job. But a week later, I was informed I wasn’t selected. 

       I felt dejected again because this time, I cut a part of my left forefinger while chopping herbs and I bled profusely. My husband took me to the urgent care and I got the bandage. I was cleaning the wound and wearing bandage for almost 8 weeks until I healed completely. Thank God, there were no nerves cut. I was so desperate  to get the job that I asked my husband, “now that God has punished me with a cut finger, do you think He will reward me with the job at my dream company?”. My husband smirked and said, that’s not how it works. 

       Fast forward, we had to visit our hometown for our FIL’s one year death anniversary prayer and our baby girl’s tonsure. My parents took us to all the temples they had prayed for our little Cutie pie to come in. Grateful to God and my parents and our baby girl for completing those promises. The tonsure and ears piercing went well and while I waited for my visa, a twist was waiting for me. The visa didn’t come on time and hence I had to stay back with our baby. My husband travelled back alone and I got the visa approved just one day after he left. Universe works in mysterious ways, I thought! I was so stressed out that I took out the anger on my baby. I am so sorry Dev! I was thinking “What’s the bigger reason for this visa delay?” I didn’t mind and I accepted my fate. I decided to stay back with my parents. They indeed have a good time with our daughter. After 6 weeks of stay, I travelled back alone with our toddler girl. The flight journey was no less difficult especially the 16 hour leg. We finally landed and a car journey of 3 more hours was waiting for us to finally reach home. 

       We reached home finally. The jet lag was continuing For almost 10 days. Then my husband decided to step in to rectify that by co sleeping with  our baby. She felt super comfortable and she loved co sleeping. I decided to get her new activity books and puzzles for her age and she excelled in them. I was so happy and proud to see my baby accomplishing all her tasks and milestones. Eating was the only problem. I decided to spoon feed her for her to gain more weight as she lost some pounds due to hectic international travel. 

       A friend suggested that Mac and cheese may help in keeping the baby full as well as gain weight (fat content). I introduced the same and my baby girl liked it. I was glad. What more joy than to see your little one loving the good you made? Months went by and the series of Indian festivals came. I kept on applying for jobs on LinkedIn and company career websites hoping to see atleast my resume will get picked up. 

        Post Diwali, we had to travel to Seattle for SIL’s baby shower event. It was a simple yet grand event held at home. The event went well and we came back. I was going through my emails and I saw a couple of “Unfortunately, we have decided to move forward with other candidates”. Then I stumbled upon another email and i didn’t care to read the subject line. I was searching for the default “decided to move forward with other candidates” but to my surprise I saw there was a link called link mentioned. Then I came back to see the subject line and it was “Interview request”. The email and the look and sender did look suspicious mainly because of the short link. I decided to verify the sender myself and the person was real. 

    I scheduled the interview with HR. I was asked if I am available immediately to attend the next round with Hiring manager the next day. I was totally not prepared and I asked for one day time. I had my Hiring manager and team lead interview - a day after that. It was a full on technical interview and at the end, I felt I aced it. The Hiring manager acknowledged I did well and that she has to confirm on my visa and work authorization. I waited for  few days as it was Thanksgiving. The Thanksgiving holidays were memorable. I got an email next week asking for my availability with director. I was ready and I aced it. Next day I had the interview with peer and he gave me a very positive feedback that “I nailed” the answers. He mentioned he doesn’t have any doubt on my rental acumen because of the college I came from. I felt very valued and I was asked to join immediately. 

       The offer came the next day and I accepted it. All the in-between wait periods were a breeze - why? Because that is how “sense of alignment” feels. If you are truly aligned with the Universe; you won’t be feeling desparate. You will feel grounded because you know you are getting there. But you don’t want to also jinx it so you don’t think about “what’s going to happen next? What if it’s not?”. 

Moral of the story: “Feeling aligned with the universe and your higher self feels different and subtly lit and grounded” no need for self doubt or no need of self-critical tones. 

Manifesting for an easy job role and responsibilities once I join.

Praying for enough work life balance to take care of our beautiful cutie pie. 

Praying to bestow the best health to all of us 💜🦄✨💖 Cheers