Who’s my guide?
Usually when I see angel numbers on the phone, computer, stove top clock, microwave clock, bedside lamp digital clock, car time, someone else’s Apple Watch time,
I pray.
At one point, I was becoming impatient that I got angry over these angel numbers and stopped praying because the life was not in my control. It took a while “again” to understand that life was never in my control. I have already made the choices of my entire life. I am experiencing this life only to understand why I made this choice.
After the birth of my first child, I prayed to the “Spirit guides”/ angels whoever is guiding me to look at these numbers that I would need their support until I have my next child.
And here I am, sitting and typing this blog while I pump for my 8 week old second baby. I always had this question - who is my Spirit guide? Is it my Ammo - paternal grand mother or my own mother or me?
In my childhood when I was around 7-8 years old , my mother used to say that whenever the clock strikes and sings, whatever we wish will come true. I used to watch the clock and wait until the time is 2 minutes to :00, I closed my eyes, visualized what I wanted and the clock struck. This made me think that my spirit guide could be my very own mother or it could be me too.
But I have to say, whatever I visualized and prayed for, I have them right now - the 2 story house, the baby room where streaks of sunlight pour in, there is a baby swinging bassinet and a tiny little baby.
I am extremely grateful for all of the material desires I wished for.
When I was pregnant with my second child, the song “Enigma - the child in us” became viral. The 60 second viral portion of the song - “Prasanna vadhanaam, Sowbhagyadhaam, Bhagyadhaam !” transported me to another higher dimension. Today when I was googling the lyrics, i noticed these lines
“ I was dreaming of all life
When it’s dark, you’re my light
But don’t forget who’s always our guide?
It’s the child in us
It’s The child in us”
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