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Feathers and The Law of Attraction - Continued             Some day in September 2020 - when I was aimlessly wandering in Burlington Coat factory looking for home décor, I came across this beautiful tray with peacock feathers painted on it. Feathers have always captivated my attention and this tray was no exception. Furthermore, the product was under Clearance sale and I couldn't resist buying it. I bought it for our living room center table and I placed the add-ons - a sand clock and an artificial flower vase. When the tray was all set, I sat at the couch and looked at it. I thought this tray with feathers would mean something (hope, faith, reassurance, sign from angels) to my guests, if at all they are looking for the same - Not realizing that one day, this same tray is going to re-assure me when I was feeling very low.                Weeks passed by and we had friends gathering for Christmas and New Year'...

Letting go (Free ya vitrunum)         That was the time when I was sinking to the rock bottom in my life. My boss micromanaging and threatening to fire me, my room mates not being very helpful, living on my own and away from my parents - all of these had a huge impact on my mental health. A dear friend introduced me to Glass painting. She gave me a broken glass shard sample and I painted a cute yellow Tweety bird on it. It turned out good (beginner’s luck) and I kept it at my desk. Broken glass can also be a beautiful work desk decor add-on. Isn't it? Why should something be always so perfect?     Few months later, there was an art contest in my office. The theme was 'Leading the Change'. Though I didn't win any prize in the contest, I was quite satisfied with my work. I did this glass painting below.          Few months later, I made this beautiful Lord Ganesha painting and gifted for my parent's 25 wedding anniversary. It was...

        Muri - Our first love          It was that time when my husband (then fiancé) started texting each other to know our likes and dislikes. He asked me a question -"Do you love pets?". I said, "I don't know if I love pets, but I used to feed a stray dog during my stay in Bengaluru". I also mentioned, I don't like the dog licking and so, I just feed her Parle-G biscuits and bid bye. My husband went on to ask if I liked cats. I said, I have never got a chance to interact with cats or kittens. So, the answer was, "I don't know".                              The reason why he asked was, my parents in laws were bringing up two kittens - Kichu and Chichu. Eventually, post marriage, I learnt to interact with them, slowly picking up the do's and don'ts. Kichu  liked me very much. He would come and sit on my lap and fall asleep. He is a people...

Feathers and The Law of Attraction     After my husband and I decided to build a house at our current city, we started our research on the same. Almost 6 months later, we decided to sign up for building a house with Builder W. The sales agent was very amicable to help and answer all our questions patiently. She even helped us run a rough estimate of how much the total cost of the house would end up during closing.     Both my husband and I had few conditions to be met when building a house. For example, there should be a bedroom in the ground floor so that it would be easier for parents to stay.  We almost finalized our signing date with W builder. Destiny has it, the sales agent called up during the last moment and said, we won't be able to have the 1/2 car garage extension that we importantly needed for extra storage space.      We were disappointed that we won't be able to build house with W builder as that was the last remaining plot in o...

Hair clutch  I was doing my Masters in Software systems (a distant education course) offered by BITS, Pilani. I was gearing myself up for my third semester for the four courses I had chosen. 3rd semester final exams meant the end of studying courses for credits as 4th semester had consisted only of project. I was happy about the same. The final exams happen on weekends, each course exam scheduled for the morning and afternoon. Unfortunately, two days before that Saturday, I was not feeling well. I was sick with nausea. I threw up even if I had water. I knew I wasn't going to make it for the exams. Picking the remaining energy in myself, I got an auto, packed a set of clothes and went to my Periappa's house. My Periamma, after seeing my condition, took me to a nearby hospital. I wasn't able to sit, let alone walk to doctor's room. The doctor who looked at me when I was trying to sleep on his desk, ordered an IV for 2 days.  I wasn't letting the nurse inject the syrin...

  Dreams and their interpretations - Part 1        After watching the movie 'Maara' - a Tamil remake of the Malayalam movie - Charlie, I rested for a cozy Sunday afternoon nap. The movie was so-so. I like fast moving thrillers which are mind-intriguing. I had this dream that I remember so vividly after waking up.      I was at my house, when my dad comes home along with his 3 colleagues. He says, we need to serve them snacks and water. I search for the sponge angel cake in the fridge and I check to see if the quantity will be enough for 3 members. I quickly look down to see fire eating down a tissue paper. I try to put it off quickly with a microfiber cloth that I find in the Dev Ghowlo (Pooja shelf). I, then, turn to quickly scan the fridge again for more cake. To my surprise, the fire hasn't been put off yet and I find water in the Ganga jal copper container. I pour it on the fire and I am not able to put it out. I have emptied the who...

 தலைவெட்டு தங்கசாமி  தலைவெட்டு தங்கசாமி -  The Dandelion My parents visited us and stayed with us for the winter of 2019. There were so many yellow and violet flowers (wild) in our backyard. Dad called them காட்டுப்பூ or  தலைவெட்டு தங்கசாமி.  It's been a year since I met them and I saw this big sized dandelion outside of our side yard. Reminiscing my stay with them.  After 18 or 21 years of age, children move out of their parents' home for studies or job purpose. The nest becomes empty. Once that happens, the number of times parents getting to meet their children becomes countable especially if the children move out of the country. Knowing the fact that we will die one day hurts less than the above fact. Courtesy - Netflix Show - Little Things

            2020 - The Good, Bad and Ugly    2020 has been a terrific roller-coaster for all the humans on this planet. I saw a meme yesterday that the most feared year 2012 actually manifested in 2020, with the COVID-19 killing billions of lives.  Should we call this a cleanse? Is Mother Nature healing? I am blessed by the Universe enough to sit inside a safe place (my home) and type this from an air conditioned room.  Will this be the same perception of a mother who lost her child to COVID? Or a child who lost her parents to COVID? Or a family whose business took a downturn due to COVID? I always have this question lingering inside my head. Whenever I face a difficulty, the first question my mind asks is - "Why God? Why me?". After a few days, my mind starts playing multiple roles.  Mind voice 1 : I am going through a lot of stress. I deserve better. I did nothing wrong, no harm to anyone. Mind voice 2 : There are m...

My Beloved Ammo:)   Jan 5th, 2021 Yesternight, I had a dream. Ammo - my paternal grandmother as I call her, was with me. I ask her, "Amma, why should I go through these many health issues and difficulties for conceiving a healthy, happy, live baby? Why can't I just have a happy, healthy, safe pregnancy?" She just looked into my eyes and smiled. I didn't expect an explanation from her. I just wanted to hug her and cry into her lap.  Today morning, I recalled this event when I was making tea. My eyes see the clock without any intention and the time is 10:00. Recently, I have been seeing x:00 frequently. I recollected most of the events from my dream and the clock showed 10:10. Ammo spoke through the clock to me.  But, I ask the time (Her) - Do you still have any attachment for me? Aren't you Shunya (nothingness)?